....For the last two weeks, I have been wide eyed every morning at 4 am.
"Why am I awake?" is what I'm thinking as my selfish little self doesn't want to be awake.
Sleep is precious to me. And I am ever so proud of myself when I wake up at 6:30 am to get Afton off to school because I usually drag myself out of bed at 6:45 am and rush, rush, rush. My subconscious thinks that I need those extra 15 minutes when really I don't and wouldn't be so hurried if I had woken up on time.
I tell people that I'm not a morning person, I'm a night owl. (Who now goes to sleep at 10:30pm-- how lame of a night owl is that?)
There have been times in my life when I've woken up early and exercised with friends to start my day off right. I come home feeling energized and ready to take on the world. I get so much more accomplished.
But, sadly, I've let those days slide by and, now, I'm a sleep monger.
What I guess I'm trying to say here is that if I were "good" I'd just stay awake, get up, and get stuff going, (then take a nap while Koa naps) but instead I lie in my bed and keep my eyes closed and try impatiently to fall back asleep hoping for another hour or two of precious sleep that I will lose come the end of next week when little Emery graces our family and this big, bright, new world.
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One early morning, I was wide awake and watching Greg sleep. He opened his eyes and said, "What are you doing?"
me: "I can't sleep."
Greg: "just close your eyes and think about bunnies and fuzzy things or spagetti and warm noodles."
Then, he rolled over and went back to sleep.
I'm thinking that --he wasn't reeaally awake.
2 comments:
Girl, you are "good"! Have you forgotten that you're pregnant? That's why you're so tired! ;) I'm right there with you though. I feel frustrated and guilty because I can't get near as much done as I need to. Good luck! We can do these last weeks of pregnancy! And then we can survive the sleepless, hormonal craziness of post-partum life...because we'll have beautiful baby girls!
haha that's pretty funny what Greg said... I laughed pretty hard. Nan I love to read your blog. I am so excited for you to have little Emery. Wish we could come down and see you guys. But I guess the blogs will have to do for now. I love you.
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