I just love General Conference. I love Pres. Monson! He talks to me. Actually so many talks talked to me this time, it seems. There were so many inspired messages. I have to admit that I got worked up; the tears just come so easily. I was listening to a talk, I'm not sure who it was about blessings. And I still think of Quinn. What a blessing she was given, actually several, and I still find myself wondering why her blessing didn't come to past in this life. (I know really, not my will, but thine.) It is just still hard even five years later. I still remember BELIEVING that I had that Faith. I thought she was going to live right down to the end. Satan wants me to think that I wasn't Faithful enough, and often times he enters into my head and makes me think that. But, I know that I need to not LOSE that faith. Always Believe!!!
I was talking with Greg and asking those questions that I knew the awnsers to down deep, and he reminded me that I do have a living miracle, Brinlee. (the one that frustrates me the most:)) I hear stories of blessings and miracles and I want that! My selfishness wants Quinn, now! But I DO know that I'll be so grateful to have her later as well as Baylee! How truly blessed I am!!
And I do have that miracle that I hear about in others stories, I just never looked at it that way before. Brinlee was a worry. We didn't know if she would make it here, and to be healthy was a concern, too. She is my miracle from the stories that we all hear about! I have to remember that when she is being so hard! I love all my miracles!!
2 comments:
I think that all babies are miracles. If they are here or there, they each have thier own miraculous stories. Having them grow inside of you is a miracle. Brinlee is a miracle. I remember when my mom called to tell me Baylee had passed. I had only had Jax a couple of weeks before that. I cried so much just praying they would get Brinlee out. I did not want you to loose her, too. She is a miracle and I am so greatful for the lessons both Baylee and Quinn have taught me. They prepared me to be okay with Trevee not living here with me. I know they are all good friends up there and I know we both have enough faith to make it back to see them again. I Love you!!!
You do have a little miracle. I am glad that you see that. I love your constant efforts to be a good mother. I know it is a daily, effort... moment by moment. You are doing a great job! Thanks for the yummy bread!
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